It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.

It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.

If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.

But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone.

What if your fears and dreams existed in the same place?
What if to get to heaven you had to go through hell?
What if too achieve everything you ever wanted you had to risk everything you ever achieved?
Would you still go there?

Don’t determine your future by your present circumstances

So I sit alone in this place in which i call home,
home the place where I should feel comfort but still...
I feel alone
most importantly not like my self
the mask has fooled even me
and you know what else
these emotions are what seems to be confusing me
what I feel? what is real?
my determination to lose this feeling has become exhaustion
and rest seems like the unreachable option
cant sleep and can't think
wait yes I can think but my temper hits the brink
as I slowly sink
and fade into the background
looking for a way closer to you
I AM SCREAMING
but I don't think you can hear me
Begging for help
but I dont think you can see me.
Now come please
leave us be
so you can see the real me
wipe this slate clean
I need to be me.

Sometimes we love with nothing more than hope. Sometimes we cry with everything except tears.

When Life Gets Hard

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.

Mal<3

I saw an aging flower today
All alone and slowly dying
A single tear slid down my cheek
I felt better for the crying

There is so much deep inside
That I keep hidden out of sight
Walls of pain that I put up
Built to hide me from the light

Could you take away the hurt
If I reached blindly for your hand
Or would you simply turn away
And not want to understand

So many reasons I hold on
None of which I can explain
But my time will one day end
Like a gentle summer rain

I saw an aging flower today
All alone and slowly dying
A single tear slid down my cheek
I felt better for the crying