Scared

I feel so scared,
I'm screwing up,
Making mistakes,
I'm afraid,
Afraid of everything I do,
I can't think straight,
My mind keeps ending up in the same place,
Death,
It scares me,
I don’t wanna think about it,
It makes me cry when I don’t want to,
It haunts me,
I laugh,
I laugh so much,
They think I'm happy,
I'm not,
I'm crying,
Crying like hell,
Bleeding uncontrollably,
I make so many people happy,
People like me,
I don’t,
I hate me,
I scare myself,
I cut myself,
I hurt myself,
I hurt myself more than others can ever hurt me,
It takes me to places I don’t want to go to,
It makes me enter places that haunt me in my sleep,
It tortures me,
It forces me,
It takes me to a dark room,
I'm lonely,
With no windows,
I'm crying,
I cant breathe,
I'm so scared,
I can't move,
It's coming closer,
Closer,
It's really close,
I feel it really close to me,
Breathing on my face,
Coming even closer,
I can feel it,
It whispers in my ear,
Times up.