How Does it feel to know

How does it feel to know,
That you betrayed my trust?
That you shattered my life to pieces,
That you turned my soul to dust?
What's it like to know,
That you haunt my every dream
And how every single night,
I wake up with a piercing scream?
Does it make you want to laugh,
When you know I live in fear?
Or when you know that your the cause of the voices that I hear?
Did you enjoy watching me suffer,
While you inflicted the pain?
When you beat me and you raped me,
Like it was all some sort of game?
Do you cherish all those things you took,
Those things you stole from me;
My innocence, my confidence and my virginity?
Did it ever cross your mind that night,
To take my life away?
Or did you hope that maybe I would snap,
And do it myself someday?
Does it scare you that i'm still alive,
And that i know what you have done?
Are you paranoid that one day,
I might actually tell someone?
Is the guilt eating at your thoughts,
Is it getting into your brain?
Do you regret the things you've done to me,
To make me live a life of pain?

Mal<3