So much to learn

Some days seen,
Some days forgot.
Always in existence,
Even when you're not.
Created by memory,
Existing with pain,
Becoming the shadows,
And so you remain.
I stand up and fight,
But to save you I cope.
Though it's not always right,
You've left me with hope.
Strength for the future,
To defy my own past,
And reclaim the part of me,
That was long ago cast.
Reflections don't lie,
Yet the mind can be tainted.
A distorted mural,
Carelessly painted.
Of love and of life,
I have so much to learn.
But my thoughts shall be free
Until you return.
Mal<3*